I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this

world someday

But at least for now

I gotta go my own way :)

Conversation Between Ex's:

Girl: your new girlfriend is pretty. (i bet she stole your heart)

Boy: yeah, she is. (but you’re still the most beautiful girl i know)

Girl: i heard she’s funny & amazing. (all the stuff i wasn’t)

Boy: she sure is. (but she’s nothing compared to you)

Girl: i bet you know everything about her by now (like how you knew just about everything about me)

Boy: only the stuff that count (i can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when i think of you)

Girl: well, I hope you guys last. (because we never did)

Boy: i hope we do too. (whatever happened to me & you?)

Girl: well i got to go. (before i start to cry)

Boy: yeah me too. (i hope you don’t cry)

Girl: bye. (i still love you)

Boy: later. (i never stopped)

Biggest lie
"i will always love you"
Believe it or not
no guys is always love you
thats just how life works

"Belajarlah mencintai orang yang hari ini masih milikmu
sebelum dia pergi dari hidupmu.
Hari ini mungkin dia masih mencintaimu
tapi mungkin besok tak kan ada lagi cinta untukmu
dan mungkin besok kamu yang akan lebih mencintai dia
ketika dia telah pergi
jadi jangan pernah siasia kan orang yg telah mencintai dirimu"

-unknown

#TLF II

"Sometimes i wonder how many girl he's texting while he texting me"

did you know..

gue gatau ini bener apa ngga
tp pas gue baca ini gatau kenapa
satu orang lewat dipikiran gue

#TLF

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"Have you ever just want to text the boy that broke your heart?
Because you know the OLD him
could make you smile"

all i wanted

"All I wanted was to be a girl falling asleep in a boy’s arms and not caring about anything else in the world except how I feel right there with him. Just give me a hug and wipe away my tears. Smile at me and promise that everything will be okay. Sit here and listen. Tell me I’m fine the way I am cause it always sounds best coming from you. Hug me and say that I don’t deserve this because I’m starting to believe that I do. Please just once be there to steady my shaking hand. Be there to laugh away all my problems. Be there to tell me that it’s all going to be okay. And then you came along and your so much more then that"

my feelings for you!

saddest story I have ever read

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.

Girl: Ricardo, what do you mean?

Boy: Something has come up...

Girl: What? What's wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.

Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesn't break up with me... I love him so much.

Boy: Baby, are you there?

Girl: Yeah, I'm here. What is so important?

Boy: I'm not sure if I should say it..

Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: I'm leaving..

Girl: Baby, what are you talking about? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.

Boy: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.

Girl: Why? All of your family lives over here.

Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.

Girl: I can't believe this.

Father: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously) ERICA! What did I tell you about talking to boys?! Get off the damn phone! (And hangs up)

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.

Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I don't want you to go.

Boy: Would you run away with me?

Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!

Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..

Girl: *Thinking* I can't believe what's going on.

Boy: I need to give you something tonight, because I am leaving on flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.

Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.

Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.

(They meet at a nearby park, they both hug each other. And he gives her a note.)

Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.

Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)

Boy: Baby, don't cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.

Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

(They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her)

It says...

"Erica,

You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and don't you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the right thing, and you were never there. I didn't think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.

- Ricardo"

( Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in the garbage & cries for hours. )

... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely... Then she gets a phone call....

Friend: How are you feeling?

Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.

Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...

Girl: Umm.. okay.

(She finds a piece of paper in the jacket.)

It says:

"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...

Hate = Love

Never = Always

Bitch = Baby

Will not = will

.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me... -Ricardo"

Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me! He must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!

( Erica turns the TV on. )

[Breaking news]

"An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.

( She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for... )

... A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good.

smile-glee cast lyrics

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by
If you Smile through your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
For you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying
Smile- What's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile Even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.

wound in the hearts

when I was little, I wanted to quickly become an adult so I can feel fall in love, but now when I was a teenager and fell in love I just realized something that
wound in the hand
There was not anything
compared
wound in the hearts

8-12-10 my daaaay :D

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sekian yaaaw,byeee guys

22-24 11 10

hey guys numpang cerita..

221110:
hari seni upacara lalala gitu deeeh trus kan gue yaa udah putus gitu yaa sama manusia F itu dan udah sama audi firmansyah dooong skrng wkwk hari itu seru abisss tapi blm banyak yang tau kalo gue balikan sama audi tuh awalnya naaah gara2 si ferdi pinjem bb gue dan baca2 bbm gue dan audi si ucup "gan-teng"haha juga ikut2 baca akhirnya baca kenceng banget langsung pada minta PJ deeeeh fuhfuhhh,pas pulang sekolah kan biasa nongkrong2 bentaer sama dplts and wb trus anggoro alyf sama audi mau kerumah gue gituuu asik kaaan -_- pas gue nyampe rumah ganti baju udh pake celana pendekkkk karna lupa audi mau kerumah eh alyf sms katanya dia gabisa yaudah audi sama anggoro doang yg kerumah gue,pas di bbm audi udh mau nyampe gue langsung ganti celana deh trus audi sama anggoro nyampe,yaaa anggoro dikacangin akhirnya gue cuman berdua sama audi doangggg hahahaha maap ya aang,seneng deh tapi jam 5 sore dia udah pulang huu cuman 4 jam dirumah guenya "CUMAN" heee maklum lah maklum pokoknya di hari itu thanks ya anggoro mau nemenin audi kerumah gue walaupun dikacangin,thanks juga AudiFirmansyah udah kerumah hehe :*

241110:
PGRI DAY!
gue ngeDance doooong haha
disitu N (mantannya audi) kayaknya udah tau gitu gue balikan yaudah sii sorry yaaa terima aja itu juga salah lo ngeduain dia,terserah lu mau ngatain gue MT tapi inget aja lo jauh lebih MT dari gue,sorry gue pacaran depan lo nis,ga ada maksud apa2..

itu salah satu sindiran mantannya,heeem lanjut deh yaaaa
segini dulu aja oke byebyeee~

211110

AUDI FIRMANSYAH